I am quite upset today. Nothing seems to be going smoothly thus a speed bump entry. I one thing I really hate about all this is the loss of independence. I find there is less that I can do for myself. For example, adjust the AC. I can't reach it so I wear sweaters and wrap blankets around me.
I also hate becoming invisible. My eldest avoids and my youngest ignores my parenting. I wanted to first excuse the youngest because of the stage in his life, the teenager, but find I cannot. I'm not dead yet so please listen when I talk. Respect my requests. For my eldest (and only girl) I think she resents the notion that because she is the female, she should naturally do for her mom. Wrong generation!
I get so lonely here all day long with no one to talk with or share my time. When the family comes home, I want to talk. Verbalize. They are tired from their day and don't want to talk. This is when I truly miss teaching. The interaction with other adults and the quirkiness of 8th graders (that are not my own).
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